Wrong?

Well since I have been off from work I have been mostly alone. I've been around others but basically alone. I have learned/ learning things about myself. I still don't like to talk much. In learning why my former mate broke up with me. He wanted me to date other people to see if he is who I want or not want to be with. That was smart on his part but dangerous. Why have me date other people when we want to be together. I can create a list of things that may or not be important but I do know I want someone with a faith base, dependable, trustworthy, good listener, a problem solver, a dude that's all in it with me( not one that says your problems are your problems) I want to feel safe with him, someone who I want to call first when I have a bad day or freaking out about something etc ( like a BBF). This list is ever changing and evolving. I'm sure will change. Financial security is nice but I would not be classified as a gold digger but finances are a reality not and for your future and your future family's future as well.
I thought the break from each other was great until I found someone who had potential. I realized I really missed the former. What kinda disqualifies the other I that he has made a large family. Im not ready to be a part of this ready made large family and it's dynamics even though I like the guy. Still looking. Thought about the online sites.... That's scary....
I've been reading for fun as well. Missed this as well. This has been nice and relaxing. I have read the EL James books Fifty Shades. I love them!

Foolish

According to dictionary.com foolish means - adjective
1.
resulting from or showing a lack of sense; ill-considered; unwise: a foolish action, a foolish speech.
2.
lacking forethought or caution.
3.
trifling, insignificant, or paltry.

Today I feel that 2 with a 1 twist refers to me. I'm looking back at the me since I've graduated high school. I'm beginning a new phase in life where I hope that I can look back at the things that I have done until now and use them for the future. I've made new friends lost the found some new old ones. I've also been kinda passive. I thought people really don't like overly aggressive people but apparently I'm wrong.

I'm just me

First post... What to write? My thoughts? About myself? I dunno yet. Just wanna share my mind.